Several years ago, I decided to quit freelancing and do a day job. The job would pay much less but I was struggling with mental health (ADHD). On my therapist’s suggestion, I decided to give the job thing a try. It worked wonderfully, my struggles with discipline are a thing of past. Or so I believe.

Once again, I have decided to take a drastic step. I have decided to quit my day job. This is my last week at work, coming Monday I will be unemployed.

I don’t have a plan. I haven’t planned to leave work permanently. I don’t have an ambition either, world changing or otherwise. This post is me deciding to take a break from work and finding reasons for doing so, after the fact.

Curiosity

It is exciting. The possibilities are endless. It is scary. Endless possibilities means a lot of them lead to failure. Odds are stacked in my favor in some regards; I am good at what I do, world will still need good software engineers 6 months down the road. They are not so much in my favor in some regards; precedence says I will fall into inaction and misery, and achieve nothing. Complete nothing. I’ve almost always lost in my struggles with ADHD in past. There is a good chance that I am deluding myself into believing that this time will be any different.

I am curios of whether it is me who has finally tamed the beast, or if I am going to need the structure a for